Inconsolable

I cover my face with blanket,
I realized, it is dark,
I couldn't see anything...
How stupid I am.

Just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere ?!
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place,
should I leave it there?

Tears drop into my heart,
bitter and salty indicate my feeling.
How thorny my heart is,
sorry....
It's unacceptable,
I just couldn't accept it as a FACT !!!

I'm inconsolable............

Why?
I thought *IT* once again come near to me,
but it leave me cruelty eventually,
only LONELY and GRIEVE accompany me late at night.

Love
is
BEAUTIFUL
however,
it
sometimes
TORTURE
one's
brittle
heart.

Brittle is a material which breaks without undergoes plastic deformation.
Yet,
the material is exactly my heart.

STAY OR LEAVE

by_bittercoffee ^^

Black face

I don't know whether you know that I angry or not?!

I HATE YOU !!!!

Wanna show you my black face the whole night,
but I can't do that eventually,
because I cannot show when I see your face.
Coz I miss you and really want to see you.
Haiz......

I just don't know what are you thinking ?!
You act like you never care about me,
you know how it hurts ???

Do you really LIKE me?
You do give me hope sometimes,
but you disappointed me still.

Or maybe you just don't know what does a girl think and what does she want?
If I think like that,
I would feel better.

Please,
please give me confidence ever and agah....
So that *it* would not fade !!!!

I miss you every moment,
can you feel it?

by_bittercoffee ^^

your back view

Once again,
today is Friday....

Moody + upset

But this time is a bit different,
the most is because of you.....

The destination become nearer and nearer....
My heart very 'bu she de' you in fact !!!

I stand on the bridge and look after you approach your car,
then just walk down the stair.
As I seeing your back view,
haiz....
Sad feeling..... !!!!!

Surprisingly,
you mean to me more than I expected.
This consider as good or bad news ??!!

I need your hug,
your reassurance,
your confidence.....

I miss you so much,
think of me at 12am everyday....
Lol,

by_bittercoffee ^^

Disappointed

I'm just so disappointed....
Haiz,

I don't know whether you will see this post or not ?!
But,
seriously....
I rather you don't come back,
at least.....
At least there is hope against hope on you.
I was so excited before you come back,
you would never know how happy I was !!!
But....
But....
But....
You just seems like the other way round.
I'm just too upset about it,
Girl is very sensitive,
you never know about this.
Just because of what you commented in my FB is for Ngo but not me !!!!
At least you should show that you care about me in fact.
However,
you didn't !!!!!!!!
You know ???!
What I said 'qing xim',
is really qing xim....

Fine,
because I'm not the important one to you,
but you are the one always affected my emotion !!!
Moreover,
I heard something about you.....
So HURT !!!

And I just don't know everything about you,
so I don't have the might to doubt on you,
you never tell me what are you thinking ?!
Quite sicken me !!!

p/s: Today no more ^^
but a crying emotion.....

by_bittercoffee T.T

You make me smile

Once again,
today is Sunday.
I HATE SUNDAY !!!
This day always make me down and sad !!!

I HATE SUNDAY !!!

Down+upset+stress+moody+quiet+unlovely look

In order to increase the reliable of this experiment,
this scenario is repeated every week.
And the conclusion is SUNDAY will make WJ very down.

On the bus,
I never talk,
never smile.
My face was so 'busuk'.
The journey was so long to me today !!!
I need a hug,
a warmth and lovely big hug.
In fact,
it is suffering !!!

I need accompanies of friends and family !!!
I hate HELP !!!
Why I must study here ?!

BUT,
your message made me smile,
delighten my heart.
I was smiling to myself in the train,
people may think that I am asn insane !!!

Whatever la,
at least you make me smile.
Miss you.

by_bittercoffee ^^

Looking forward

Yeah,
1 more week !!!!
Lol.....so happy,
so excited !!!!
Wakakaa.

You want your song?
I don't remember I owed you any song?!
Yet,
I know my face is chubby,
you want to pinch me meh?
I have gained weight,
sigh....
I'm not skinny lor.....

Anyway,
I'm looking forward to see you soon,
but hope we won't act like strangers.

I miss you so much,
please don't misunderstand me okay ?!
Never never give up !!!

by_bittercoffee ^^

Feeling cold...

I don't know why ?
Why I'm so down ?

Haizz......
So moody !!!
I found that I'm so lonely.
Very lonely...
I feel so cold,
no warm available for me,
there is no hug that could melt my heart.
Moody again.

Haiz....Zz...
Really ridicule.
I'm so stupid,
Always expect the things that wouldn't happen.
Ya,
I know you won't.

==''
This sign means I am breaking heart or speechless.

I miss you so much.

by_bittercoffee ^^