Feeling cold...

I don't know why ?
Why I'm so down ?

Haizz......
So moody !!!
I found that I'm so lonely.
Very lonely...
I feel so cold,
no warm available for me,
there is no hug that could melt my heart.
Moody again.

Haiz....Zz...
Really ridicule.
I'm so stupid,
Always expect the things that wouldn't happen.
Ya,
I know you won't.

==''
This sign means I am breaking heart or speechless.

I miss you so much.

by_bittercoffee ^^

Thanks, my dear

Sunday,
thank you for JH fetching me back to my hostel.

We have a really great day shopping at Sunway,
pick and choose a dress for JH to wear for her birthday party.
It had been a long time we never shopping like that,
really chuffed !!!
Though I didn't buy the things that I intend to buy.

Paparich, Honeymoon...
Although the food cannot fulfill my appetite,
but many nice shot we snapped,
wakakaa.
Mirthful.Enjoy.

While on the way back to my hostel,
Ngo said she was feeling bad everytime fetch me back to my hostel.
Then my dear YS also echoed what she'd said.
I just realized that you love me so much !!!
Hey,
this is the keystone of this post.

Really touch when you guys ''bu she de'' me,
because no one said this to me before.
As I walked toward HELP Residence,
my heart was afflicted,
I miss you so much.
But nevermind,
I will go back this week to celebrate birthday with my dear JH.

One more time I emphasise here:
I love all of you so much !!!

p/s:
YS, dont think like that, everything just fine, take it easy. Worried about you in fact.

Ngo, don't always say break !!! It's hard to be together with your love one. So, appreciate it.

JH, when you want to tell me who you love? Lol, nothing I worried about you.

Joy, HUH !!! Hate you, even JH's birthday you also don't come back !!! Really busy as bee huh?

Lyanz, my dear...I miss you so so so much !!! When you come back? And huh, never reply message.

Oni, Lol, just hope you and your boy boy can sweet sweet forever, wakakaa.

SC, this one, also HUH !!! You are not free everytime I ask you to yumcha, don't know what you busy for ?!

by_bittercoffee

my dear friend

My dear friend,
I miss you so much...

I was so happy that we could chat like an old friend.
It has been a long long long time we didn't meet or even hear each other,
so the chat that day really a great step forward.


You are my dear friend since we know each other.
Do you still remember the time when we were still in kindergarten?
You are my crony that time.
Then we went into primary school,
different class made us far apart.
Next is the time in secondary school.
The gap between us futher apart.
I'm very regret that we had become strangers to each other.

Five years ago,
you choosed to began your own new life that very different from all of us.
Within this 5 years,
you went through so many events that may heartbreak and upset.
A young and frail girl step into the cruel reality world,
I wondered you can cope with all these harships.
You are much tougher than I thought,
really a tough girl.
Just keep it.

Actually I was worrying about you these few years,
I might think of you sometimes.
I wonder how you deal with your life?
Are you okay?
May I help you?

But I know you've become stronger from the difficulties.


Be happy girl,
you should get it.
Be tough girl,
and I know you are tough.

by_bittercoffee ^^

hrmm...

I miss you...

Someone still in my heart right now,
so anyone come to me also in vain...
Because there is no more space for someone else.
My heart contains 4 chambers,
but it can only occupy 1 person inside....
You know who are you.

Why I cannot wrote about you?!
I just want to write about you,
lol...
Blek,
you can't prohibit me what ?!

Bla.....bla, bla

Maybe I will love you for a long time....
LONG LONG time...............................
I've already been a long time don't love someone,
thank you for making me fall in love again,
is a sweet thing !!!
Appreciate it.

by_bittercoffee ^^

ICU

Lol,
finally I can see you once again,
although is only via webcam.....

Satisfy !!!

Yo hooo,
you might not know how happy I am.

Large amount of adrenaline and noradrenaline hormone released into the blood stream.

When it travel to the smooth muscles and cardiac muscles,

protein receptors which are complementary to it take them into the cell,

smooth muscles of artery and cardiac muscles of the heart constrict.

Hence blood pressure increases result in the heart rate increases too.

I can't concentrate when doing anything,

just thinking of you every moment.

Miss you so much,
do you feel it ?!

Hope to see you soon.


Hope to get you in the airport but it's weird to do so since I'm just a friend.

by_bittercoffee ^^

1010

It's your birthday,
I remember.....
Wish your a happy birthday 3 hours before 12am here.

You seems have an enjoyable birthday with your friends,
I'm glad to know that,
but there is emptiness inside my heart.

Emptiness=loneliness

I'm trying not to find you recently,
but it's hard to reach......
You seems like have already get back to the life before my existence,
360 degrees changed.
But why it's hard for me to go back ?!

You would never know how much I miss you.

I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiitng...

Hoping to receive your call.....
ToT

by_bittercoffee ^^

A dream

I dreamed a sweet dream yesterday,
it is a sweet dream for me....
Lol....

I woke up in the midnight ( maybe too happy with it ),
and keep asking myself whether it is real or not ?!
Maybe I was tidak sedar diri that time,
my mind keep telling me:
that's true, that's true !!!
Then I was very happy and sleep again.
Surprisingly,
the dream continued it's story.....

All the things happened out of expectation.

Then in the morning,
I've tried hard to remember the story and the sweet moment I have.
But in the afternoon,
only half remain in my mind.....
Luckily it is the vital part of the dream.

I really hope that the day would come to me !!!

I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...












by_bittercoffee ^^

Mooncake Festival

My mooncake festival was kinda meaningless this year.

Just yumcha with friends at My Tasty Kopitiam,
nothing special to do ?!
All of the friends have their own programmes,
but left JH, Ngor and I....
Only few ''pieces'' of mooncake I'd eaten this year.
My mom didn't buy mooncake at all because all of my family members don't like it.
It's too sweet for me....

I didn't have much feeling to Mooncake Festival this year,
only few tanglungs I saw,
yet I didn't see any mooncake promotions in the shopping centres ( maybe I didn't go to shopping centre lately) ?!

Today my friend brought some mooncakes here and invited us to level 1 eat together.
Lol,
actually I enjoyed the moment when we're chit-chating here and there,
our friendships once again being strengthen !!!
Happy + satisfied...

p/s: Hope you have a happy Mooncake Festival, miss you ~

by_bittercoffee ^^

HPV

Do you know what is HPV?
Lol,
it is a vaccination series of cervix cancer....

Well,
our government provided free vaccination for all the 13 years old girls in Malaysia,
but the other girls or women wouldn't get the free vaccination.
So my parents brought us to inject HPV this morning --
both of the elder sisters and I.

Woosh,
no pain could be feel at that moment,
the pain is come after you know ?!
Luckily my left arm being injected,
or I couldn't write otherwise.
Is not utterly pain,
just can't apply large force or energy.
I faced some difficulties when take bath or any action in daily life !!!
I couldn't arise my hand.....
==''

There are 3 injections I need to do,
it's important to complete your vaccination series within the scheduled time to help ensure full protection.
Today was the first time I was injected,
I need to inject 1 more time after 1 month and the last one after 6 months.

For your information,
cervix cancer as the second killer of women disease in Malaysia.
This vaccination can decrease up to 90% of the chances to get this horrible disease ( if I don't get wrong )!!!

Appreciate your life...

by_bittercoffee ^^

孤单心事

没有你的旅程，多了一份孤单。
没有你的旅程，少了一份甜蜜。

从来不知道你的心。
在你心里，我有没有一点特别？只要一点，我只要一点就心满意足了。

其实啊，很开心你睡不着时会找我聊天。虽然半夜三更了，我想睡了，可是我还是会忍着不让自己睡着，好让我可以陪着你。
你知道吗？
陪伴着你睡不着的夜晚，是一种幸福。

[ 我猜不到你真正的感觉，思念写成脸上的黑眼圈。
有的时候我宁愿你对我坏一点。
无法停止幻想我们的永远。
爱你是孤单的心事，不懂你微笑的意思。
只能像一朵向日葵在夜里默默地坚持。
爱你是孤单的心事，多希望你对我诚实。
一直爱着你，用我自己的方式。]
--孤单心事

by_bittercoffee