StiLL

Still, no any progress as I expected.

STRANGERS...
WHATEVER....

Maybe we are not considered as Friend as well,
because we never talk, no contact, even never have eye contact.
I don't kow why and when we have become like this?!
Yet, all of this just like come very naturally, without any sign.
*it, never been explained...
It's horrible and fearful.
Well, these are definitely NOT what I want.

But....nothing I could do right ?!
So what is the next step I should take?


KEEP CHASING PAVEMENTS,
EVEN IF IT LEADS NO WHERE...


by_bittercoffee ^^

SORENESS always beside me

Tearful,
tearful,
tearful,

Suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering.

Grief,
grief,
grief.

Pain,
pain,
pain.

Finally languish.

by_bittercoffee T.T

At least...

I can't read your mind,
I don't even know what are you thinking.
You so cool to me recently,
do you know that I'm upset because of this?

Just be friend,
I knew about this..........

But,
at least you don't leave me in a sudden,
I can't get used the life without you.
Can you slow down your pace to leave me ?
Can you use 50 years to leave me SLOWLY ?

Can you leave me slowly ???

Your sudden changed of attitude upset me,
360 degree changed.......
I wonder if you miss me everyday before you sleep ?!

No one can read your mind.

I rather be a vampire,
so that I can read your mind,
at least I won't be suffering as now......

Miss you so much....

by_bittercoffee ^^

Inconsolable

I cover my face with blanket,
I realized, it is dark,
I couldn't see anything...
How stupid I am.

Just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere ?!
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place,
should I leave it there?

Tears drop into my heart,
bitter and salty indicate my feeling.
How thorny my heart is,
sorry....
It's unacceptable,
I just couldn't accept it as a FACT !!!

I'm inconsolable............

Why?
I thought *IT* once again come near to me,
but it leave me cruelty eventually,
only LONELY and GRIEVE accompany me late at night.

Love
is
BEAUTIFUL
however,
it
sometimes
TORTURE
one's
brittle
heart.

Brittle is a material which breaks without undergoes plastic deformation.
Yet,
the material is exactly my heart.

STAY OR LEAVE

by_bittercoffee ^^

Black face

I don't know whether you know that I angry or not?!

I HATE YOU !!!!

Wanna show you my black face the whole night,
but I can't do that eventually,
because I cannot show when I see your face.
Coz I miss you and really want to see you.
Haiz......

I just don't know what are you thinking ?!
You act like you never care about me,
you know how it hurts ???

Do you really LIKE me?
You do give me hope sometimes,
but you disappointed me still.

Or maybe you just don't know what does a girl think and what does she want?
If I think like that,
I would feel better.

Please,
please give me confidence ever and agah....
So that *it* would not fade !!!!

I miss you every moment,
can you feel it?

by_bittercoffee ^^

your back view

Once again,
today is Friday....

Moody + upset

But this time is a bit different,
the most is because of you.....

The destination become nearer and nearer....
My heart very 'bu she de' you in fact !!!

I stand on the bridge and look after you approach your car,
then just walk down the stair.
As I seeing your back view,
haiz....
Sad feeling..... !!!!!

Surprisingly,
you mean to me more than I expected.
This consider as good or bad news ??!!

I need your hug,
your reassurance,
your confidence.....

I miss you so much,
think of me at 12am everyday....
Lol,

by_bittercoffee ^^

Disappointed

I'm just so disappointed....
Haiz,

I don't know whether you will see this post or not ?!
But,
seriously....
I rather you don't come back,
at least.....
At least there is hope against hope on you.
I was so excited before you come back,
you would never know how happy I was !!!
But....
But....
But....
You just seems like the other way round.
I'm just too upset about it,
Girl is very sensitive,
you never know about this.
Just because of what you commented in my FB is for Ngo but not me !!!!
At least you should show that you care about me in fact.
However,
you didn't !!!!!!!!
You know ???!
What I said 'qing xim',
is really qing xim....

Fine,
because I'm not the important one to you,
but you are the one always affected my emotion !!!
Moreover,
I heard something about you.....
So HURT !!!

And I just don't know everything about you,
so I don't have the might to doubt on you,
you never tell me what are you thinking ?!
Quite sicken me !!!

p/s: Today no more ^^
but a crying emotion.....

by_bittercoffee T.T