StiLL

Still, no any progress as I expected.

STRANGERS...
WHATEVER....

Maybe we are not considered as Friend as well,
because we never talk, no contact, even never have eye contact.
I don't kow why and when we have become like this?!
Yet, all of this just like come very naturally, without any sign.
*it, never been explained...
It's horrible and fearful.
Well, these are definitely NOT what I want.

But....nothing I could do right ?!
So what is the next step I should take?


KEEP CHASING PAVEMENTS,
EVEN IF IT LEADS NO WHERE...


by_bittercoffee ^^

SORENESS always beside me

Tearful,
tearful,
tearful,

Suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering,
suffering.

Grief,
grief,
grief.

Pain,
pain,
pain.

Finally languish.

by_bittercoffee T.T

At least...

I can't read your mind,
I don't even know what are you thinking.
You so cool to me recently,
do you know that I'm upset because of this?

Just be friend,
I knew about this..........

But,
at least you don't leave me in a sudden,
I can't get used the life without you.
Can you slow down your pace to leave me ?
Can you use 50 years to leave me SLOWLY ?

Can you leave me slowly ???

Your sudden changed of attitude upset me,
360 degree changed.......
I wonder if you miss me everyday before you sleep ?!

No one can read your mind.

I rather be a vampire,
so that I can read your mind,
at least I won't be suffering as now......

Miss you so much....

by_bittercoffee ^^

Inconsolable

I cover my face with blanket,
I realized, it is dark,
I couldn't see anything...
How stupid I am.

Just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere ?!
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place,
should I leave it there?

Tears drop into my heart,
bitter and salty indicate my feeling.
How thorny my heart is,
sorry....
It's unacceptable,
I just couldn't accept it as a FACT !!!

I'm inconsolable............

Why?
I thought *IT* once again come near to me,
but it leave me cruelty eventually,
only LONELY and GRIEVE accompany me late at night.

Love
is
BEAUTIFUL
however,
it
sometimes
TORTURE
one's
brittle
heart.

Brittle is a material which breaks without undergoes plastic deformation.
Yet,
the material is exactly my heart.

STAY OR LEAVE

by_bittercoffee ^^

Black face

I don't know whether you know that I angry or not?!

I HATE YOU !!!!

Wanna show you my black face the whole night,
but I can't do that eventually,
because I cannot show when I see your face.
Coz I miss you and really want to see you.
Haiz......

I just don't know what are you thinking ?!
You act like you never care about me,
you know how it hurts ???

Do you really LIKE me?
You do give me hope sometimes,
but you disappointed me still.

Or maybe you just don't know what does a girl think and what does she want?
If I think like that,
I would feel better.

Please,
please give me confidence ever and agah....
So that *it* would not fade !!!!

I miss you every moment,
can you feel it?

by_bittercoffee ^^

your back view

Once again,
today is Friday....

Moody + upset

But this time is a bit different,
the most is because of you.....

The destination become nearer and nearer....
My heart very 'bu she de' you in fact !!!

I stand on the bridge and look after you approach your car,
then just walk down the stair.
As I seeing your back view,
haiz....
Sad feeling..... !!!!!

Surprisingly,
you mean to me more than I expected.
This consider as good or bad news ??!!

I need your hug,
your reassurance,
your confidence.....

I miss you so much,
think of me at 12am everyday....
Lol,

by_bittercoffee ^^

Disappointed

I'm just so disappointed....
Haiz,

I don't know whether you will see this post or not ?!
But,
seriously....
I rather you don't come back,
at least.....
At least there is hope against hope on you.
I was so excited before you come back,
you would never know how happy I was !!!
But....
But....
But....
You just seems like the other way round.
I'm just too upset about it,
Girl is very sensitive,
you never know about this.
Just because of what you commented in my FB is for Ngo but not me !!!!
At least you should show that you care about me in fact.
However,
you didn't !!!!!!!!
You know ???!
What I said 'qing xim',
is really qing xim....

Fine,
because I'm not the important one to you,
but you are the one always affected my emotion !!!
Moreover,
I heard something about you.....
So HURT !!!

And I just don't know everything about you,
so I don't have the might to doubt on you,
you never tell me what are you thinking ?!
Quite sicken me !!!

p/s: Today no more ^^
but a crying emotion.....

by_bittercoffee T.T

You make me smile

Once again,
today is Sunday.
I HATE SUNDAY !!!
This day always make me down and sad !!!

I HATE SUNDAY !!!

Down+upset+stress+moody+quiet+unlovely look

In order to increase the reliable of this experiment,
this scenario is repeated every week.
And the conclusion is SUNDAY will make WJ very down.

On the bus,
I never talk,
never smile.
My face was so 'busuk'.
The journey was so long to me today !!!
I need a hug,
a warmth and lovely big hug.
In fact,
it is suffering !!!

I need accompanies of friends and family !!!
I hate HELP !!!
Why I must study here ?!

BUT,
your message made me smile,
delighten my heart.
I was smiling to myself in the train,
people may think that I am asn insane !!!

Whatever la,
at least you make me smile.
Miss you.

by_bittercoffee ^^

Looking forward

Yeah,
1 more week !!!!
Lol.....so happy,
so excited !!!!
Wakakaa.

You want your song?
I don't remember I owed you any song?!
Yet,
I know my face is chubby,
you want to pinch me meh?
I have gained weight,
sigh....
I'm not skinny lor.....

Anyway,
I'm looking forward to see you soon,
but hope we won't act like strangers.

I miss you so much,
please don't misunderstand me okay ?!
Never never give up !!!

by_bittercoffee ^^

Feeling cold...

I don't know why ?
Why I'm so down ?

Haizz......
So moody !!!
I found that I'm so lonely.
Very lonely...
I feel so cold,
no warm available for me,
there is no hug that could melt my heart.
Moody again.

Haiz....Zz...
Really ridicule.
I'm so stupid,
Always expect the things that wouldn't happen.
Ya,
I know you won't.

==''
This sign means I am breaking heart or speechless.

I miss you so much.

by_bittercoffee ^^

Thanks, my dear

Sunday,
thank you for JH fetching me back to my hostel.

We have a really great day shopping at Sunway,
pick and choose a dress for JH to wear for her birthday party.
It had been a long time we never shopping like that,
really chuffed !!!
Though I didn't buy the things that I intend to buy.

Paparich, Honeymoon...
Although the food cannot fulfill my appetite,
but many nice shot we snapped,
wakakaa.
Mirthful.Enjoy.

While on the way back to my hostel,
Ngo said she was feeling bad everytime fetch me back to my hostel.
Then my dear YS also echoed what she'd said.
I just realized that you love me so much !!!
Hey,
this is the keystone of this post.

Really touch when you guys ''bu she de'' me,
because no one said this to me before.
As I walked toward HELP Residence,
my heart was afflicted,
I miss you so much.
But nevermind,
I will go back this week to celebrate birthday with my dear JH.

One more time I emphasise here:
I love all of you so much !!!

p/s:
YS, dont think like that, everything just fine, take it easy. Worried about you in fact.

Ngo, don't always say break !!! It's hard to be together with your love one. So, appreciate it.

JH, when you want to tell me who you love? Lol, nothing I worried about you.

Joy, HUH !!! Hate you, even JH's birthday you also don't come back !!! Really busy as bee huh?

Lyanz, my dear...I miss you so so so much !!! When you come back? And huh, never reply message.

Oni, Lol, just hope you and your boy boy can sweet sweet forever, wakakaa.

SC, this one, also HUH !!! You are not free everytime I ask you to yumcha, don't know what you busy for ?!

by_bittercoffee

my dear friend

My dear friend,
I miss you so much...

I was so happy that we could chat like an old friend.
It has been a long long long time we didn't meet or even hear each other,
so the chat that day really a great step forward.


You are my dear friend since we know each other.
Do you still remember the time when we were still in kindergarten?
You are my crony that time.
Then we went into primary school,
different class made us far apart.
Next is the time in secondary school.
The gap between us futher apart.
I'm very regret that we had become strangers to each other.

Five years ago,
you choosed to began your own new life that very different from all of us.
Within this 5 years,
you went through so many events that may heartbreak and upset.
A young and frail girl step into the cruel reality world,
I wondered you can cope with all these harships.
You are much tougher than I thought,
really a tough girl.
Just keep it.

Actually I was worrying about you these few years,
I might think of you sometimes.
I wonder how you deal with your life?
Are you okay?
May I help you?

But I know you've become stronger from the difficulties.


Be happy girl,
you should get it.
Be tough girl,
and I know you are tough.

by_bittercoffee ^^

hrmm...

I miss you...

Someone still in my heart right now,
so anyone come to me also in vain...
Because there is no more space for someone else.
My heart contains 4 chambers,
but it can only occupy 1 person inside....
You know who are you.

Why I cannot wrote about you?!
I just want to write about you,
lol...
Blek,
you can't prohibit me what ?!

Bla.....bla, bla

Maybe I will love you for a long time....
LONG LONG time...............................
I've already been a long time don't love someone,
thank you for making me fall in love again,
is a sweet thing !!!
Appreciate it.

by_bittercoffee ^^

ICU

Lol,
finally I can see you once again,
although is only via webcam.....

Satisfy !!!

Yo hooo,
you might not know how happy I am.

Large amount of adrenaline and noradrenaline hormone released into the blood stream.

When it travel to the smooth muscles and cardiac muscles,

protein receptors which are complementary to it take them into the cell,

smooth muscles of artery and cardiac muscles of the heart constrict.

Hence blood pressure increases result in the heart rate increases too.

I can't concentrate when doing anything,

just thinking of you every moment.

Miss you so much,
do you feel it ?!

Hope to see you soon.


Hope to get you in the airport but it's weird to do so since I'm just a friend.

by_bittercoffee ^^

1010

It's your birthday,
I remember.....
Wish your a happy birthday 3 hours before 12am here.

You seems have an enjoyable birthday with your friends,
I'm glad to know that,
but there is emptiness inside my heart.

Emptiness=loneliness

I'm trying not to find you recently,
but it's hard to reach......
You seems like have already get back to the life before my existence,
360 degrees changed.
But why it's hard for me to go back ?!

You would never know how much I miss you.

I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiting...
I'm still waiitng...

Hoping to receive your call.....
ToT

by_bittercoffee ^^

A dream

I dreamed a sweet dream yesterday,
it is a sweet dream for me....
Lol....

I woke up in the midnight ( maybe too happy with it ),
and keep asking myself whether it is real or not ?!
Maybe I was tidak sedar diri that time,
my mind keep telling me:
that's true, that's true !!!
Then I was very happy and sleep again.
Surprisingly,
the dream continued it's story.....

All the things happened out of expectation.

Then in the morning,
I've tried hard to remember the story and the sweet moment I have.
But in the afternoon,
only half remain in my mind.....
Luckily it is the vital part of the dream.

I really hope that the day would come to me !!!

I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...
I'm waiting for you...












by_bittercoffee ^^

Mooncake Festival

My mooncake festival was kinda meaningless this year.

Just yumcha with friends at My Tasty Kopitiam,
nothing special to do ?!
All of the friends have their own programmes,
but left JH, Ngor and I....
Only few ''pieces'' of mooncake I'd eaten this year.
My mom didn't buy mooncake at all because all of my family members don't like it.
It's too sweet for me....

I didn't have much feeling to Mooncake Festival this year,
only few tanglungs I saw,
yet I didn't see any mooncake promotions in the shopping centres ( maybe I didn't go to shopping centre lately) ?!

Today my friend brought some mooncakes here and invited us to level 1 eat together.
Lol,
actually I enjoyed the moment when we're chit-chating here and there,
our friendships once again being strengthen !!!
Happy + satisfied...

p/s: Hope you have a happy Mooncake Festival, miss you ~

by_bittercoffee ^^

HPV

Do you know what is HPV?
Lol,
it is a vaccination series of cervix cancer....

Well,
our government provided free vaccination for all the 13 years old girls in Malaysia,
but the other girls or women wouldn't get the free vaccination.
So my parents brought us to inject HPV this morning --
both of the elder sisters and I.

Woosh,
no pain could be feel at that moment,
the pain is come after you know ?!
Luckily my left arm being injected,
or I couldn't write otherwise.
Is not utterly pain,
just can't apply large force or energy.
I faced some difficulties when take bath or any action in daily life !!!
I couldn't arise my hand.....
==''

There are 3 injections I need to do,
it's important to complete your vaccination series within the scheduled time to help ensure full protection.
Today was the first time I was injected,
I need to inject 1 more time after 1 month and the last one after 6 months.

For your information,
cervix cancer as the second killer of women disease in Malaysia.
This vaccination can decrease up to 90% of the chances to get this horrible disease ( if I don't get wrong )!!!

Appreciate your life...

by_bittercoffee ^^

孤单心事

没有你的旅程，多了一份孤单。
没有你的旅程，少了一份甜蜜。

从来不知道你的心。
在你心里，我有没有一点特别？只要一点，我只要一点就心满意足了。

其实啊，很开心你睡不着时会找我聊天。虽然半夜三更了，我想睡了，可是我还是会忍着不让自己睡着，好让我可以陪着你。
你知道吗？
陪伴着你睡不着的夜晚，是一种幸福。

[ 我猜不到你真正的感觉，思念写成脸上的黑眼圈。
有的时候我宁愿你对我坏一点。
无法停止幻想我们的永远。
爱你是孤单的心事，不懂你微笑的意思。
只能像一朵向日葵在夜里默默地坚持。
爱你是孤单的心事，多希望你对我诚实。
一直爱着你，用我自己的方式。]
--孤单心事

by_bittercoffee

Moody.......

Haiz....
I don't know why ?!
Moody again though I always laugh,
looks very happy but empty in my heart.

When will this over?

I miss you everyday even every minute.
But the distance between us farer than the exact distance,
less topic we can talk.
I will respect you,
what you decided.....
I won't force you.

I always worry about you,
but seldom I show it,
because I know you've already changed.
I don't want to disturb your life,
the life before my existence.

I'm wondering why you always ask me to give up ?!
I won't give up !!!
If you come back to me,
everything are worth.....

by_bittercoffee ^^

Felt lost...

Yea,
felt lost recently......
Don't worry,
I think I will be okay soon.

This feeling came to me once,
and I cried that time,
felt loneliness.....
No one beside me --
the world is grey in colour.
=.=''

After crying,
I accept the reality gradually and start to do something in order not to think too much.
But the feeling of fear still stayed in my heart for a long time.
I never think that I will have this kind of feeling ?!
Because I'm very determined that I will work hard on it and no hardships can stop me !!!

But what the hell DNA and RNA make me so confusing ?!
I know I can do it,
just lack of confidence.
I knew this !!
Since I got the BIO test result last time --
I got a very bad result that I couldn't forgive myself !!!

I understand what happen to DNA and RNA,
but they spend me a long time...
Why ??
I will restore soon.

Maybe I am just demand too severe to myself ?!

p/s: Don't worry too much, everything will be solved. I'm sorry to hurt you and make you worried.

by_bittercoffee ^^

1+0=1

Yea,
I changed to single again....

I'd lost hope.
Since 09.09pm yesterday.
I cried eventually though I told you that I can't cry out.
I'm so sorry.

I think we become friend will be better for you,
because you can't accept it,
I know,
time is only an excuse.....
I won't force you,
just let it go and regard this as a wonderful dream.
So,
you may changed to single instead of complicated.

Not your fault,
is my fault......

DEPRESSED.........

by_bittercoffee ^^

Tsunami

Beforehand,
I expected Tsunami was not nice once I saw the trailer,
I thought it's kinda boring or not excited because it's made in Korea.
But my view had changed totally after the watched --
Tsunami is damned nice,
cool man !!!!!

Funny + touching.

The funny parts....
Walao,
all of us were laughing badly !!!
Even till my stomachache and out of control....
Lol, really funny.
What is the laughter story?
Just find it out ourself.

And as the touching parts.....
I was deeply impressed.
The scenes made me cried you know ?!
And yet my friends all laughing at me !!!
Hate la you guys,
cold-blooded ?!

I was deeply moved by the story --
many I thought that time.
Please do anything that you want to do ASAP,
because you don't know what would happen just in the next moment !
I can feel the feeling when the moment come,
is really sad.......

A guy (quite handsome) who is a rescuer love a girl,
and the girl love him too.
But there is another guy who tried to break their relationship.
The handsome guy save that bad guy eventually
and sacrificed his life !!!
I was crying badly that time,
Cannot together with the girl he loved would be the greatest regret in his whole life.


As usual,
I still screaming all the way,
Joy even want to cover my mouth !!!
Wakakaaaa......

p/s: I also don't want to regret then.......
I love you, my dear !!!

by_bittercoffee ^^

1+1=2

Sure you don't know what is mean by 1+1=2
Lol,
very easy --
indicates that I'm no more single,
yet no more available.
Someone always in my heart though he is not beside me right now.
Sweet.

So,
1+1=2...........

Why we'll stick together?
Actually I don't know also,
but it just like very biasa if we are together ?!
Hohohohoho,
thanks to our mei po --
Ngor.....
Lol.

Many of you may think that we are lightening ?!
Yea,
I also think like that....
Wakakaaa,
I admit that I used to like that before;
but this time is unlike the previous one,
I'm determined........
SERIOUSLY !!!
You too right ?!

Waiting for you to come back,
and create the memories that only belong to both of us.

My life is perfect with YOU....
My sweet darling.

Miss you all the moment ~

by_bittercoffee ^^

Tasty Pot

Went to Tasty Pot together with my HELP gang yesterday.
I have done some researches on it before we go there.
Their website mentioned that the operation time is 12.00pm - 1.00am,
but the actual time is 4.30pm - 1.00am.

Luckily we reach there just after 4.30pm.
Lol,
I think we are the first customers.

Comment:
There many seafood: 2 or 3 types of crabs, lala, scallops, oyster, clam and many many more that I don't know their name !!! But the seafood there is totally not fresh, except the prawn. My friends said it's fresh though but they don't clean the ''black colour intestine that on their back''.

The soup we ordered: HK Satin Porridge and Soya Bean. Both of it is pretty nice. Order the soya bean only if you are dare to because some people thought it was disgusting !!! But for me, it is nice.....And the satin porridge taste very 'sweet, splendid.

There are BBQ honey chicken wing tasted very nice too. However, there are not much varieties of barbeque food, merely the chicken wing can be recommended. Yet, ice-cream also provided, but don't expect they are the very-branded ice-cream. Rojak, salad and fruits also provided.

p/s: If their seafood is fresh enough, I'd go for next time. But since they are not, so I would never go again.

by_bittercoffee ^^

Din Tai Fong

Went to Din Tai Fong few days ago.....
Walao, really nice !!!!
Even nicer than Dragon-I.

First thing to mention:
the Siew Long Pao really very X 10 NICE....
The dumpling inside is different from the siew long pao of Dragon-I.
Dumpling of Dragon-I is like satu ketul;
but Din Tai Fong's is not,
it's texture is splendid to enjoy.

Then I ate the Braised Beef Noodle Soup.
The noodle are hand-made,
very smooth and ''elastic'' ?? ( weird describe)
Erm.....
There are about 3 pieces of beef in it,
the soup was totally dark red in colour,
smell good.
But it taste a liltle bit salty --
the only imperfection.

While my friend recommended the Fried Rice With Eggs and Fr (pork chop, I don't know what is Fr, found it in their website).
The pork has a very nice texture,
absolutely...definitely...truly !!!
Lol,
you may not recognize it as pork though,
because it's texture is not alike with pork.
Just like fishball....
doi, Doi...Doi...doi !!!!!

p/s: must try the others when I'm rich....

by_bittercoffee ^^

Guilty

Woosh,
>.<''''''

I really felt guilty with IT !!!!!!


But,
please believe me:
I'd tell you because I really care about you.
And that's why I tell you the truth,
I don't want to cheat you.


But,
I was regret after I told you......
You seems very disappointed and shocked.
I'm so sorry,
I shouldn't do that,
yet I supposed not to go !!!!!!

My image may totally alter then ?!
I don't want to be a bad girl !!!!!!

p/s: I'll change it....and nothing would happen today.

Believe me !!!

by_bittercoffee ^^

You steal my Heart?

Just to record my feeling today.....

Someone still in my heart right now....
Lol,
sweet SWEET feeling !!!

Can't get used of it if we don't chat for even 1 day,
I think.
Though we knew each other only a short time.

Really bo song you today.
Why you went that kind of place?
But I was delighted again after you promised me something even we are just friend now......
Thanks, my dear !!!

p/s: Good night, miss you.....

by_bittercoffee ^^

Happy Birthday my dear....

Lol...
Happy birthday to my dear !!!
I'm so regret that I missed the scene that you drop your tear.....
Anyway,
hope you'll have a memorable birthday,
and so to the 'book' that we did for you !!!

We went to JJ again,
Green Box to sing K.
Then 1.30pm we went to watch movie --
Final Destination 4....
I'd waited this movie to be on screen so long the time !!!
I'm looking forward it,
but it seems quite disappointed me...>.<''

Hshhh.....be quiet,
tell you guys a secret:
I screamed when watching the movie,
only Hui Ngor and I screamed for that scene,
and actuay nothing scary event happen in that scene gek,
so hor............
All the audience laughing at us !!!!!
They laughing really loud you know ?!
Haiyo,
then hor.........
In the end,
when all of the audience wanna go out,
they looked at the row that we sit........
I think they are searching for me ?!
Really xia sui.....
I'm the one scream the LOUDEST !!!!

After that,
we went to Dragon-I.
The Siao Long Pao there really nice,
but the other food merely ma ma dei nia.......

We went for shopping then.
Back home around 6 - 7pm ?!
Not realy remember the time,
lol.
Went to eat again in Jenjarom --
steamboat.
Erm....
It'd became more and more distasteful,
seriously !!!!

Fetch our leading role to back home.
That's all the celebration for our
dearest and pretties Miss Hui Ngor !!!

p/s: I love you, baby.

Wakakakaka...~~~

by_bittercoffee ^^

Shogun

Went to Shogun last few weeks....
Erm,

the comments from me:

merely so-so........

You should test the others if you can.

Forgot how much is the price ?!

But is utterly not worth the price !!!

The distasteful dishes more than the palatable one,

so if you are wise,

you won't choose it as the first choice.

First,

I tried sushi....

Errr,

I think sushi is the best at there.

Unagi and chuka iidako are delicious...

I love chuka iidako henceforward,

really tasteful.....

Then,

we tried a dish which fried with various vegies and meats that you take.

I choosed a green vegies, mushroom and mutton, lamb.

They were fried with some sauce which taste quite special and nice,

but the mutton was fried for too long the time.

And this made one of the defect of the dish.

I'm suprised actually......

with the present of 'dim sum'.

Their siew mai is okay nia,

not consider as delicious though.

A dish with duck seems very special,

but it tasted quite weird....

I don't like it !

Yet,

I tasted the seafood there.....

Totally not fresh !!!!!!

Have you ever eat 'lala' that it's fresh is DRY ???!!!

And also to the crab ???

Haiz...

Really disappointed.

As for the 'sea snail' (I don't know what to called?),

maybe I'm not get used with the style they cook....

I don't like that taste with garlic and cheese mixed together,

felt like want to vomit !!!

Oyster:

I never eat oyster before.

So I can't tell you whether it is fresh enough ?!

But it is a fresh thing for me to test it....

It's happy to experience the new things......

Next target: Jogoya.
Anyone volunteer to treat me the great meal ?!

by_bittercoffee ^^

haiz...

Oh God !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My first day at Kampar kena saman !!!

Story:
After yumcha with ChunFei,
LiYen and I wanted to loiter around Westlake by motor since I come Kampar only the second time.
We just loitering less than 5 minutes,
then we were stop by two shyt b( )ast polic( )m( )n.
p/s: ( ) --> e

Both of us didn't wear helmet.
Yet,
LiYen was riding that time,
and she has no driving license.

The beasts threaten us that LiYen riding without driving license would be fined RM300 and would be gone to court;
the owner of the motor would be fined another RM300 for giving permission to the person who don't have driving license to ride;
the motor would be sent and detained in the police station until the owner of the motor come to bail it.

I was panic of course,
The shyts agreed to makan duit kopi finally,
but we didn't know how to settle this kind of thing or how to tell ?!
so we just delayed the time.
And luckily there were some guys passing by and came to help us.
Ultimately,
we gave them RM70 !!!!!!!!!
Shyt !!!
More than the amount people usually give !!!!!
Bxstxrd !!!

After this,
some guys teached us how to confront and deal when meet such thing.
Nevermind,
just let it be a lesson to learn.....
Haiz...................ZzzzZ

by_bittercoffee ^^

Edward VS his Smile

Lol ~
I'd promised someone to write a post especially about him.......

Yea,
he is Edward Tan (if I don't get wrong his surname) --
a 17 years old handsome guy from Kedah,
tall (more than 170cm but less than 180cm) and dark skin,
has a very sweet and warm smile,
looked on the square and dull,
but talkative,
outspoken,
quite a shy person (only in my opinion),
loves football very much: more than basketball,
wanna be a lawyer one day (I don't know whether he'd changed his mind ?!).
And I bet he will get flying colour result in his coming SPM !!!

p/s: Girls, he is a perfect man...who want his handphone number?

p/s: Am I truly understand you? Lol....we only met ONCE !
So, is good enough to have such detail information about you.

I knew this 'perfect' guy in Mantin, Negeri Sembilan --
the xueji 'Quan Guo Ying' camp.
I ever mentioned about him in my older post if you guys attention about this.
Let me clarify beforehand:
please don't make fun of me after you read the article below ya....

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In the 'Quan Guo Ying' camp,
he was one of the participant that represent Kedah.
The first glance I saw him,
he was smiling when the activity was in progressed.
His smile was warm enough to lighten up my heart that time,
and he looked very cute and amiable when he's smiling.
Yet,
I could know that he is a sportman by his muscled figure--
sunshine and healthy looked.
He was wearing basketball attires,
so so so handsome !!!
He was so attractive to me because I'd found my ex's reflection on him.
But seriously,
he is special to me not because of my ex.

When he looking at me,
automatically I smiled to him,
and so he responsed to it politely......
Funny thing we did --
we just smiling to each other throughout the camp !!!
When he was running,
he also smile when saw me.
p/s: Your mouth sour or not? xD

SMILE ~ bring us closer.....

I knew that he was in the same group with my junior in the camp.
So after back home (actually I was still in the way back home) I got his handphone number....
Lol,
you know how happy I'm that time ?!

But,
I want to complain something here.....
You didn't reply my messages,
damned sad and disappointed !!!
The day I almost give up and then you texted me suddenly.
I was surprised and of course excited for the whole day !!!
Hence,
our realtionship established.

Until now,
what is our relationship?
I think we may consider as BEST friend ??!!
At least we share our secret and talk about the problems we faced.......
But,
ask me this question after years.....
Lol,
Edward, you know the reason I says this.
xD

Smile~

by_bittercoffee ^^

pLay GirL?

I read a book recently....
About a guy has two girlfriends,
and how he deals with it.
I like this book very much !!!
The word or sentence he says in the novel is splendid.
After sometimes I will post the sentence up here.
So,
just look forward it ya !

The point I want to say here......
is.........
After being hurt,
I've became an another person,
that you guys may not know....
Quite hard to understand right?!

I've changed my view toward LOVE,
or even I can't define the word 'LOVE' for now.
It become blurr.......
I don't know what is LOVE ???
And I don't want to LOVE anymore,
unless I meet the one that I really really want to LOVE.....
but is hard !!!

The one I loved don't love me,
and who I don't love loved me.

Actually I'm not can't put down you,
just my heart feels lonely,
and so I'll think of you.....
Just all.

Try to find another way to reassure my loneliness.
YOU may know what I mean here.

by_bittercoffee ^^

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Watching episode just now,
it let me think of someone and something that really touched my heart.

I think of HIM......
And this made me sorrow again.

This morning,
he'd sms me....
Only 3 words in the message:
谢谢你...

I don't know why he thanks me?
Really wondering.
He never contact me since that day,
long long long time ago.......
And today,
he suddenly texted me,
of course I was surprised !!!!
I'm happy?
Or other feeling inside my heart?
I even don't know ?!
Weird feeling......
But I thought that he'd sent to the wrong person ?
I rather believes this is the truth !!!

I don't know why?
I thought I'd already put down the burden since his birthday?!
What had happened to me?
No one can really answer me or help me.
Why he acts like a wandering ghost,
always appear in my mind ?!

I want my life to stay away from him FOREVER !!!
But his words still engraved in my heart,
and it hurts me truly deeply.

Recently,
that frightening feeling come to me again.
It makes me don't know how to react with it.
So.......
I choose to escape from it.

Just to keep the situation now,
don't try to change it please.....
Okay?
And,
don't ask me any question.
Please don't !!!!!

Everytimes the feeling come up to me,
then I will restore to alone again........
Because my heart can't occupy any other person inside.

Our sweet and sad memories rewind in my brain.
I saw all the picture we had together;
every words you said;
every action you did.
I just realized that:
I really miss you.....

I know you would never see this blog and know my feeling.
Just let me note down the memories about you and me.
You may not know,
I introduced you to all my friends --
I showed them our sweet pictures that you'd lost them when your house being break-into.
I keep them in a good condition,
I don't want nothing left in our memories.
Yet,
your big brown eyes is the one that I always mention to people.
I remember your look,
the handsome one when we took that picture.....

p/s: Your happiness is my happiness.....So, please be happy !!!

by_bittercoffee ^^

Pantai Kelanang

Yohoooo.....

We went to Pantai Kelanang when LM at my house.

Actually that was also my first time visit to Pantai Kelanang though it very near to my house.

Pantai Kelanang is quite a new beach for me,

and it located only next to Pantai Morib.

Listened to my friends,

Pantai Kelanang is well-known for its white colour sand instead the grey one.

Though it is "new",

but the cleanliness is same as Pantai Morib --
dirty + brown colour sea water.

Yet,

not much developement there,

no beautiful pondok or even a bench,

the trees are still small.

So it gave me the sense of HOT.

I only able to find a stall sells candy and junk food.

Hence,

no much people when we at there,

we even can count the number of people.

Of course,

we'd took many photos.....

1, ,2, 3......Jump !!!

Walao, what I'm doing?

We hang our shoes on the tree.

Just for fun...lol

At night,a bit sot.....

Lol,

we went to Tanjung Sepat,
but just for ikan bakar --

Ah Fu Xiao Yu.

Great day we'd passed.

by_bittercoffee ^^

LowMaJi Steamboat

Went to Puchong on Friday....
Just to eat at the Low Ma Ji what what Szechuan spicy steamboat.

Before-hand,

something funny happened that I would like to share with you guys:

LM and I went to Subang.

I wait for Kim while LM wait for Wooi Keong.

I told Kim that I'd arrived at 6.00pm.

Lol....

We reached KL Central jor,

then need to go to Subang Jaya by KTM.

You know,

we'd catched the WRONG train which go to the opposite direction !!!!

Damned yu...

The first time to get in wrong train....

Xia sui, lose face.

Haizzzz..........z.zzzzz.........

So reached Subang late.

Okey,

right back to the steamboat.

It is a buffet steamboat,

RM21.00 per person exclusive the drinks.

We ordered two soups --

broth and spicy (intermediate).
I don't really like its broth --

it's herbal soup with some pepper flavour.

I like the most:

coagulated pig's blood (QQ) and especially instant boiled mutton (fresh);

I hate the most:

pig's intestine (smelly) and various kind of fish balls (lame).

My lovely blood-red coagulated pig's blood.

Mutton.....I didn't eat beef that night.

There are many veggies, meat and seafood for you to choose.

I pick a whole plate of veggies:

mushroom, lotus, corn, cabbage......etc.

There are also roasted prawn, hot dog and small squid.

Damned nice their roasted food with spicy sauce.

Oopsss,

and one more important thing is their sauces --

you can mix whatever ingredients that you like.

Eg:

mashed garlic, fried onion, sesama, mashed peanut, spring onion, parsley and +++++ so on.

I think this is their extraordinary thing that other shops won't do it.

The scent of the sauce remain in your mouth well if you chewed slowly.

Your tongue may become FEELINGLESS if you keep eating the spicy one !!!

Though I admit that I'm quite a spicy-lover tak boleh tahan.

But,

it's very exciting to enjoy it slowly and chit-chat.

MUTTON !!!!! I love you so much....

p/s: It's impressing and recommendable to you guys, but still not enough to let me say that:" It's perfectly tasteful."

by_bittercoffee ^^